A minute silence for the woman I love most in the whole wide world.

Rest in peace, bebi.

It is one month already, I can't picture things so you are not in my memory but you are in my thoughts.

Every morning when I wake up now, I have to register it in my brain that you are gone. Love you till death, Morii.

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I want to live alone and I want to live with one person —HER.

Mariam's aura came with peace. She was everything you could ask for as a friend, a mother, a sister and a lover. She was the coolest person in the world.

Mariam was a fighter, she fought through every of her crisis and came out strong until now when there is no more fighting to do.

It is hard to express how she is but this woman lived well.

There is one question she always asks that takes you back to factory setting, So, you don't know what to do? In Yoruba, she says, so, o mo nkan to ma se?

If there is anybody that needs eternal peace and rest, it should be her. She has survived the painful days for too long, it is deserving.

I am hurt, sorrowful, pained, losing my mind but is it about me?

I loved that woman so much. I don't want to have kids or go through the pregnancy stage but I would have done it for her. Nobody was going to make her into anything she wasn't, not even her child.

I could die for her. I could be Jesus for her.

I always said I would marry my sister if she wasn't my sister, it was no joke, that's how much I loved her.

She is a force to be reckoned with. It is either you are in it with her or out. She loved differently. She approached life differently. She was very private. She was very consistent with her doings. She took her health seriously. She always made things happen.

“Aishat, pray for me, I need to do so much for you.” She has done so much for me and left so much for me. I would eternally be grateful for the opportunities she created and left for me.

I am grateful to have been a part of the 19 years of knowing and experiencing her.

My sister was my star, her life was beautiful. She was loved to death.

She said in five years, I would be at the middle or at the end of my goals— more like her life. It is five years now and Morii’s legacy would never die.

You are at peace now. 🕊️

I hope you are resting away from the pains that make staying alive difficult — this is my only consolation.

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No condolences messages here, I can shoot you.